Why has it been so hard to finish the pie book I started? I have written and illustrated a children’s book about pies. It’s pretty cute but I just won’t finish it. Why? Because I am self-conscious about my drawings. I decided that I wanted to illustrate it myself. If I was the only one seeing it, I’d be happy enough with the drawings. I am no professional artist but I enjoy drawing. It’s scary to think others would see it and critique me. I can hear people thinking: “What makes her think she can publish this book? She can’t draw. I could do that.” Well to them, I say – do it! Maybe I will free others to create books with their own crappy drawings. Now I feel bad. I’ve hurt my own feelings. Honestly, how old will I have to be before I just don’t care what people think? Wouldn’t it be nice to live in a world (and in a mind) that didn’t care? Where pure creation was enough?
I think I’m going to go home and finish my book. This pep talk/therapy session has helped.
Soon on book store shelves: Pies, Pies, Pies!